That’s the thing about hopeless romantics. Most of the time, people think they are petty or childish or worse, too demanding. But to those who truly understand us, who really see things through our eyes, love is magic. It’s not perfect but it gives you that adrenaline rush. It makes your heart beat faster. But most of all, it makes you want to close your eyes to the things that are better felt than seen.
We don’t care much about grand gestures. In fact, I doubt we even notice them. What we do notice, however, are the small ‘unimportant’ things people do. Things we didn’t expect done. Things that take our breath away, so to speak.
Last night, I said something like this: “Starting from now, I’ll remember what I want in a person. Chinky eyes. Smart. A Future (the likes of a lawyer, businessman, doctor). Bonus points if the person’s a hopeless romantic. And if I don’t get what I want, It’s okay. At least I know I didn’t settle for anything less“.
I want someone who can stand in the rain with me. Who would sneak a kiss when I’m not looking (as I would do). Or who I’d enjoy clandestine meetings with at three in the morning just to say “Hi”. Or who I can hold hands with when life is at its worst so we can smile and both say, “Everything’s going to be okay”.
I want to watch the sun rise and the sun set. To walk along the beach and hold hands. To stare at each other and then smile and laugh and hug. Someone who will sms you or who you will sms at the middle of the day saying, “I’m thinking of you right now”.
It’s not dreaming. It’s not hoping. It’s not even asking for too much. After all, what is too much in love? It’s knowing that someday, you’ll meet the person who fits the bill.
I remember when I was at the lowest point of my life before and in sheer desperation, I asked my mom, “Things are going to be okay in the end right? and eventually, I’m going to be happy?”.
She replied with her eyes welling with tears,” You will be. Because I know for sure, you deserve to be happy”.
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Last night was great. It made me come into terms with the things I want and not be ashamed for it at the same time.
Thank you, you know who you are :)